I have been contemplating and dreaming about what it might mean to return to a place as if for the first time and the idea of making this journey came to mind.
As T.S.Eliot puts it.
‘We must not cease from exploration.
And the end of all our exploring will be to arrive
where we began and to know the place for the first time.
In the Book of Runes by Ralph Blum, if you draw the Rune, Berkana, it hints that your search might be towards, ‘Where knowledge is transmuted to understanding’.
I am coming back to Eilat, Israel where freediving began for me 20yrs ago, and freediving here for the first time in 12 yrs.
I am curious about my own state of mind and about the search for depth which was often in this time curtailed by other priorities. However, the desire to understand what depth means to be never diminished.
I have returned here to feel what freediving has become to me, with a ‘beginner’s mind’.
I have always been curious about what is learnt knowledge and what can be visceral knowledge understood at a primal level. When I think of an experience is it physical? Is it emotional? Or is it both?
When we learn to dive into depths much more significant than just the numbers we are pushing towards, what do we learn in the process?
I think I know…….but here in the next few weeks I am curious to experience on another level what it is that I think I have learnt in all this time.
If this experience has become cellular has there been a change in my relationship towards myself and to those depths, is that change related and have those depths lost their significance, to then be able to let the search go?